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during the time of which I speak it was hard to turn the other cheek
to the blows of insecurity
feeding the cancer of my intellect the blood of love soon neglected
lay dying in the strength of its impurity

meanwhile our friends we thought were so together
they've all gone and let each other in search of fairer weather
and we sit here in our storm and drink a toast
to the slim chance of love's recovery

there I am in younger days, star gazing
painting picture perfect maps of how my life and love would be
not counting the unmarked paths of misdirection
my compass, faith in love's perfection
I missed ten million miles of road I should've seen

meanwhile our friends we thought were so together
left each other one by one on the road to fairer weather
and we sit here in our storm and drink a toast
to the slim chance of love's recovery

rain soaked and voice choked like silent screaming in a dream
I search for our absolute distinction
not content to bow and bend
to the whims of culture that swoop like vultures
eating us away, eating us away
there eating us away to our extinction

oh how I wish were a trinity, so if I lost a part of me
I'd still have two of the same to live
but nobody gets a lifetime rehearsal, as specks of dust we're universal
to let this love survive would be the greatest gift we could give

tell all the friends who think they're so together
that these are ghosts and mirages, all these thoughts of fairer weather
and thought it's stormy out I feel safe within the arms of love's discovery

Indigo Girls Love's Recovery

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Had a good time at Marty's birthday party last night. It was actually a bit more quiet than I'm used to for a Marty and Loree party, but most of the regulars were there along with a few new faces. I got a chance to interact with a few people I've seen at previous parties, get to know them a little better, and generally mingle with a social group far larger than my own personal social circle in the area.

Notable events: a Babylon 5 episode and watching of all three Wallace & Gromit shorts; several displays of Dana's underwear (which apparently had some sort of Futurama theme print); listening to the soundtrack to Buffy: The Musical; discussions on server ventilation, naming of Marty's new car, local ren fairs, where to find 11+ sized women's boots, Microsoft corporate culture, and the geometry of cloven-fruit construction. The hot-tub utilization was fairly low, and for a booze-consumption report, you'll have to ask the hosts :>

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let's not drag this out everything's in motion
though I've only ever loved you kind and with devotion
remember when I met you were leaving from the start
thought one day you'd probably just come home and break my heart
it's funny what you know and still go on pretending
no good evidence you'll ever see that happy ending

you looking for your distance
and sensing my resistance you had do your will
I had to learn the hard way
we were just an empty dream too big for hope alone to fill

I know that I'm a dreamer so I'll give you that
still I hope I'm more than just a place you laid your hat
you're a land of secrets its only citizen
though I paid my dues I was never allowed in
so I am a stranger especially today
'cause I get sad and lonely and you get your way

holding on for change that I know never stood a chance
so I could only wait and watch you slip right through my hands

Indigo Girls Hope Alone