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I ain't here to hold you when you cry
I ain't here to hold your shaky hand
I ain't here to look you in the eye
or beg for you to understand

I ain't gonna walk you through your dreams
walk you through this life that we all know
I ain't here to listen while you speak
I ain't here to heal your broken soul
am I here at all

I ain't here to tell you what you need
I ain't gonna take a noble stand
I ain't here to look you in the eye
or beg for you to understand

I can only tell you what I've seen
I can only tell how it felt
when my heart is crushed so bad inside
'til I feel the hatred slowly melt
I don't wanna

I ain't gonna watch your every move
I ain't gonna dog your every step
I ain't here to shake your every mood
I ain't here to keep your secrets kept

but oh! if I held you in my arms
if I could squeeze you 'til we cry
I don't wanna lose this love I feel
I don't wanna lose this fight tonight
I ain't gonna!

I ain't here to hold you when you cry
I ain't here to hold your shaky hand
I ain't here to look you in the eye
I don't want you under my command

I can only hope you feel your tears
I can only wish you'd feel the hope
I can only hope that I can see
help me under skin that covers me

oh how I wish that you were here
if I could hold you in my arms
oh how I wish that you were mine
I don't wanna beg for you no more

I ain't gonna tell you how I feel
I ain't gonna tell you how I feel
I ain't gonna cry for you to love me
because I know you will
I just know it

I Don't Wanna The Call

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Been a crazy, up-and-down week... We've been redoing large portions of our E3 demo the past several days, and our deadline is basically today. Getting close, but lots of small details to nail down. Par for the course in this industry I suppose...

Going to see X-Men 2 tonight at the Cinerama and going to the Cloud City gaming convention in Vancouver, B.C. Saturday morning. I might either stay for Sunday or come back early in the morning for a Beltaine ritual down in Tacoma with the TERRA group. Frankly, I'm a bit burned out on gaming and could use some company...

Trying hard to not dwell on my feelings this week, as it is all just a knot of despair and regrets right now. Thanks the goddess the summer is coming, because I'd really be in trouble with a little seasonal-affective thrown in to this mix right now.

Editor's Note: Tickets for The Matrix: Reloaded at the Cinerama are on sale now!

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