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I spent the entire day yesterday playing at the gameday, and got to bed pretty late. As a result, I had intense dreams this morning. The first I can remember is some sort of 'spiritual journey after death' thing with a bizarre formal 'processing' of souls by having me relive the key moments of my life and interact with the loved ones I missed most. Something between the Juedeo-Christian tradition of the passing into the afterlife and a mall. Weird crap. Another dream was being married again and dealing with some of the dynamics of full-time partnership (fights, making up, etc.), then the whole thing turned into a nightmare about house ownership with huge worms burrowing up into the floor under the carpet.

As a result, I woke up in a bit of a down mood. My apartment is just so damn quiet so much of the time, and early in the morning it makes me realize how lonely I am sometimes. These days I have company more often than I did a few years ago, but it is still so far away from a life partner and the simple joys of not waking up alone most of the time.