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walbourn ([personal profile] walbourn) wrote2004-11-01 04:44 pm
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I had plans to do more this past summer, but the Sierra/Microsoft transition really took most of my attention. [livejournal.com profile] jeliza and I talked about trying to do some camping in the Olympics, but with her push to get her business going and her familial duties, it didn't happen. I love the outdoors, but somehow going on my own seems potentially boring and/or depressing. Hopefully scheduling next year will ensure I can attend Summerstar, as I miss getting a chance to camp with those alterna-hippy-pagan types.

I think I've reached a plateau in my on-going efforts to expand my social circle. I'm very grateful for the friends I have, and in my 3+ years here in Seattle I've managed to make a fair number of acquaintances through gaming, the con scene, the poly dinners, live journal, and so on. I never was a social maven, so I don't know that my current social circle is all that much smaller than it was back in Austin--at least towards the end of my time there--but it still feels like I don't have enough people around to call up on a whim for dinner or a movie.

On the positive side, the job at Microsoft is definitely not boring and with the work-related travel added to my own gaming/convention hobbies, my schedule is reasonably busy. Seeing [livejournal.com profile] jeliza continues to be immensely fun and enjoyable, although the reality of time and other commitments keep it more or less constrained to the level things are now. I should probably be working harder to get out and date more broadly, but frankly I never liked the 'dating' thing.

I'm looking forward to Orycon this weekend, as I usually find the social events around fandom amusing at least. Where else can I dance knowing nobody else is any good at it either?

Part of me is afraid that I'll still be living the same life when I hit 40, the thought of which I find immensely depressing. I realize I inverted my 20s and 30s, but I'm not sure I can see a path from here that leads to a life I would want for the longer term. One heartache to heal at a time I suppose. Next year my big plan is to try to get a house. I've been living in an apartment way, way too long.

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